Self-help guide for GBT men using abusive behaviours in intimate relationships
This self-help guide is for any man who has used abusive, violent, or controlling behaviours towards a male partner and wants help to change.
This self-help guide is for men who have used abusive, violent, or controlling behaviours in their intimate relationships with men; this includes gay men, bisexual men, trans men or straight men who have occasional sex with other men and want help to change.
We know it can be tough facing up to difficult problems and if you’re reading this, it probably means you have some concerns about your behaviour.
We want to support you to get help and make the changes you need, so that you are safer around your partner and children (if you have or care for them).
Throughout this guide, we use the term ‘partner’. For those that have been abusive in the past, partner (in this guide) can also refer to ex-partners of either gender.
When you read this self-help guide, we encourage you to think hard and face up honestly to the things you have done. You might have done something only once or twice, but in many cases, you’ll notice that there is a pattern and an intent to the abusive things you do. By recognising your patterns of abusive and controlling behaviours, it will hopefully become easier to make changes and stop.
It takes effort and commitment to stop being violent, controlling and/or abusive. This guide can go as far as making you aware of some aspects of the problem. For more help you can contact the Respect Phoneline free of charge on 0808 8024040.
Domestic abuse, or domestic violence, is usually defined as any incident of controlling, coercive or threatening behaviour, violence or abuse between those aged 16 or over who are or have been intimate partners or family members, regardless of their gender or sexuality. However, incidents are rarely isolated and most people who experience abuse find that there tends to be a pattern of behaviours that scare, hurt and/or otherwise control them.
Coercive control refers to what goes on between episodes of violence and abuse, as well as to the ‘incidents’ themselves. Frightening and controlling your partner means that he is less able to be himself or to do as he wants. If you have children, or care for children, they are likely to be scared and upset by it, too.
Behaviours like stalking and checking on your partner isolate him from support and trap him in a world where you call the shots and are violent and abusive when he doesn’t do what you want. The memories of what has happened in the past when he ‘broke your rules’ can be enough to keep him under your control and in your power, whether you use abuse or not.
Domestic violence and abuse can include, but is not limited, to the following:
Hitting, punching, kicking, pushing, using a weapon against him, putting your hands around his throat, strangling, choking or causing him any other kind of physical harm, regulating food intake, damaging things, throwing and breaking things.
Psychological or emotional abuse
Calling him names, texting, or emailing him abusive messages, putting him down, shouting or swearing, controlling who he sees, accusing him of things or demanding that he changes his clothes or looks.
Gaslighting is another form of psychological abuse where you discredit his memory, perception and sanity through lies, denial, contradiction, false information and manipulation.
Pressuring or forcing him to have sex, touching him against his will, sulking or punishing him for not wanting sex, forcing him to watch porn, degrading him or pressuring him to have unprotected sex is sexual abuse. Sexual abuse can happen in or outside of relationships.
Financial abuse and/or Economic abuse
Keeping a strict account of how much he is spending, keeping him short of money, refusing to sign paperwork, using his credit cards without permissions, building up debts. Restricting his access to essentials such as food, clothing or transport, denying him the right to have his own money by preventing him from being in education or employment, preventing him from accessing benefits or a bank account, withholding financial contributions to your child/ren’s care after you have separated.
Online and digital abuse
Monitoring his social media profiles or emails, abusing him over social media such as Facebook or Twitter, sharing intimate photos or videos without his consent, using GPS locators or spyware on his phone.
Making unwelcome contact after you have separated, calling, and texting him repeatedly, checking up on his movements or pressuring him to take you back, following him, using contact arrangements to abuse him and punish him for leaving the relationship.
GBT men who are victim/survivors may face a range of other abusive and violent behaviours particular to their experiences as GBT men. These behaviours tend to focus on the sexuality or gender identity of GBT men in ways that heterosexual male victims don’t experience:
Intimidation and threats to disclose sexual orientation and/or gender identity to family, friends, work colleagues, community and others. Disclosing gender history, sexual orientation or HIV consent without abuse. Using immigration law to threaten a person with deportation to their country of origin which might be unsafe due to anti-gay legislation or anti-gay stigma
Undermining the sense of sexual orientation and/or gender identity/expression or making a person feel guilty and ashamed of their sexual orientation and gender identity/expression. Limiting or controlling access to LGBT+ safe spaces and/or resources.
In addition to everything listed above Trans victim/survivors of domestic abuse may also suffer specific forms of violence and abuse related to their trans identity which may include, but are not limited, to the following:
If you have used any of these behaviours towards your partner or ex-partner, you are being abusive.
How would you feel if someone treated you like that?
Choose to change!
Abuse doesn’t just happen – it is always a choice. Even though it may feel like you are losing control when you are abusive, it is often quite the opposite. To make sure you are not abusive in the future, you need to recognise and understand your intent in using abusive behaviour, and what purpose it is serving.
Think about the times you have abused your partner and if you are honest with yourself, you will be able to work out what your intent was.
This is what we mean when we say that domestic violence and abuse is about power and control. Whenever you use fear, force, or coercion to make him do something he doesn’t want to do or stop him doing something he does want to do, you’re being abusive.
How does your abuse affect your partner?
As difficult as it can be, many people find that facing up to how their behaviour has affected – and still affects – their partner can make it easier to change: if you can understand what it’s like for him being on the receiving end of violence, abuse and controlling behaviour, it might be easier for you to change.
Your abuse is likely to be having a serious effect on your partner’s health and wellbeing. If you have used physical violence you may have caused injuries such as:
Stiffness, soreness, aching, throbbing, numbness, headaches; cuts and other wounds; black eyes and bruising; lost teeth and hair; burst ear drums; broken bones, weight loss.
In some cases, men have killed or permanently disabled their male partners.
Even if you have not used physical violence, abusive and controlling behaviour impacts men in a multitude of ways. Your partner may:
The most important thing is that you must let go of wanting to control or change your partner’s behaviour; you can only change your own behaviour. You might not like his behaviour, but that does not ever excuse your choice to use violence and abuse.
If you or your partner have, or care for children, how are they affected by the abuse to your partner?
It’s easy to tell yourself that children aren’t aware of abuse in the household, especially if they aren’t in the same room where the abuse takes place. However, even if your children haven’t seen you be violent, abusive, or controlling, they will have overhead things.
Imagine how terrifying it is for children to hear abuse and violence, trying to piece together what is happening and worrying how it will end without being able to do anything.
Some of the ways abuse affects children can include, but is not limited to, the following:
Children who live in a house where abuse takes place are suffering harm whether it is aimed at them or not. Children are completely dependent on the adults around them and if they do not feel safe in their own homes or families, this can have long lasting effects now and in the future.
Physical effects: Children can get physically hurt if abuse is taking place near them or they try to intervene to make it stop, they can find it difficult to sleep when they live with domestic abuse, and they can also find it hard to concentrate, feel scared, wet the bed, and have panic attacks.
Emotional effects: Children often experience fear; anger; distrust; anxiety; low self-esteem; growing up too fast; not being able to talk about what is going on.
Behavioural effects: models him/herself on your abusive behaviour; protective over their parent or carer- may use violence to protect them; expects/accepts abuse; is bullied at school; misses time from school; does poorly or over performs at school; use alcohol/drugs to cope; wary of other adults particularly professionals; developing eating disorders.
It can be hard to face up to what you’ve done and how it’s affected your partner. You may feel bad about how you have behaved. Your relationship is unlikely to be a happy one and many people who contact the helplines say that they feel a range of different feelings about themselves and their behaviour: regret, disgust, concern, anger, sadness and shame are all common.
In the short-term, and often because of shame and guilt, it is easier not to take responsibility for your abusive behaviour. If you are telling yourself you are not responsible then you don’t have to feel bad about it. You don’t have to look at your behaviour and attitudes or change anything.
Playing down your actions serves to make it easier for you to live with your abusive behaviour and avoid judgements by others.
It is not until you accept sole responsibility for making changes that your abuse and violence can stop. If you continue to tell yourself, and others, that the abuse is not that bad, or that the abuse isn’t having as much impact on you, your partner and your family, then it will become harder and harder to accept how serious the abuse is and motivate yourself to change.
We speak to many men who feel their partner provoked them into being abusive. You are blaming your partner when:
The first step to stop your abusive behaviour is to take full responsibility for your behaviour. This means recognising that it’s up to you to change how you behave. It is never your partner’s fault if you choose to be abusive and blaming him won’t help.
Next time you notice yourself blaming your partner, try to:
Even when your partner has behaved in ways that are not ok, you are still responsible for how you choose to behave. Your partner may have broken some rules that you have agreed or may have done something that you find unacceptable. Either way, your choice to use violent or abusive behaviours is a problem that you must take responsibility for. There is always a choice: if your partner is not the perfect partner you wanted, or if he behaves in ways that you don’t approve of, you have the choice or reconsidering whether you want to be in this relationship or not. Choosing violence or abuse is always the wrong choice.
Alcohol and drugs don’t cause violence, but they can make it worse. Many people use alcohol and drugs and aren’t violent or abusive; you are still responsible for your behaviour if you are drunk or high. If you find that your abuse is worse when you drink or use drugs and you still do it, then you are choosing to be abusive.
Most people can choose how much and where to use drugs or alcohol. If you are one of these people you could try cutting back on your use of alcohol/drugs or keep it away from your family. This may mean staying at a friend’s house after the pub or making sure you are sober when you go home.
If you are someone who cannot choose how much and where to use drugs/alcohol, you could consider getting some professional advice around your alcohol or drug use. Click here to find local services
Other things to blame
There are many other excuses men use for abusive behaviour such as:
None of these things cause you to be abusive.
They may be issues that you and your partner argue about a lot, so may feel linked to your abusive behaviour. However, a lot of people experience these things and never use violence or abuse. You will be able to think of a time that you might have been stressed about any of the above and you didn’t choose to be abusive.
When you’re struggling to understand your violent and abusive behaviour, you may be tempted to explain that you lost control and had what we might refer to as momentary insanity. You might say:
‘I lost control’
‘I just flipped’
‘I saw red’
The ‘human pressure cooker’
You may feel that the build of pressure inside you was too much and by that point it was too late to make any other choice than to be violent/abusive. You might say:
‘I just exploded’
‘I just blew’
Most of the time, your abusive behaviour isn’t random. You don’t explode randomly at passers-by, neither do you ‘see red’ and hit just anyone who happens to be near you.
If you believe that you felt so overwhelmed that you were abusive you won’t be able to stop. It’s one of the ways to avoid understanding what abusive behaviour is about and what it is for. You can always make different choices.
If you’re honest with yourself, you can identify lots of things you choose to control:
So, what can you do?
Take a time-out
Learn how to stop yourself from being violent. The guided time-out resource on the Respect Phoneline website can help you identify when you are about to become violent, so you can choose to remove yourself and keep your partner safe.
Build a support network
Building a positive support network is an effective way to ensure you have back up when you are worried about becoming violent and abusive. When thinking about who should be in your support network, the following guidance will help you:
If you cannot reach anyone in your support network, you could consider some of the options below.
If you are finding it hard to change
If you don’t feel able to stop your violence and abuse, you should think about moving out of the house and not seeing him for a while. It may be the only way to keep him and your children safe.
Look after your wellbeing
You might want to pray or meditate. Even a simple breathing exercise can help you to interrupt negative thoughts and manage your emotions when you are feeling stressed or like your behaviour is going to escalate. You could try the following:
Step 1. Exhale completely through your mouth.
Step 2. Close your mouth and inhale through your nose to a mental count of four.
Step 3. Hold your breath for a count of seven.
Step 4. Exhale completely through your mouth, to a count of eight. (This is one breath).
Now repeat steps 2-4 three more times, until you’ve taken 4 breaths. Don’t take more than four breaths in a row, or you might start to feel dizzy.
Call the Respect Phoneline freephone 0808 8024040
We will listen to you in a non-judgemental way, discuss your situation and help you think about how to change. Our helpline is confidential.